resolutions in 2012

New year it means new paper. We have given by God a new white paper this year, and maybe the question is for what the new white paper? white paper is a symbol for us to re-arrange what should we do in this year, what should we get in this year. And then the white paper will fill with our ink, and it'll be a new story for us.

Ya, everyone in new year have many target, like someone who want to be a boss in this year, someone want to graduate in this year, and so on. But for my self I have some dreams that I want to get it in this moment until this year finish. The first one is I want to be more useful to my mother due to only single parents that I have, because my father has already died last year, so I really want to make my moms lips more smiling to me. Many years left I used to be a bad person even I didn't drank alcohol or maybe more but I was a naughty person in school. Many times my parents feel disappointed to because of my attitude. the second one is I want to finish my IEC class with high score. ya as we know I'm still entering this class until March so I have many times to be more in score. The last target is I want to success in this year, every mission that I want, I want it finish and solve completely

My greatest disappointment in my life

I will try to share with you about my disappointment things in my whole life. It happened this year, when i was 17. In that situation i was really not serious in studied. I always make my parents disappointed with my score, day after day i used to be like that. And then, that's problem make me thought that my parents not really care about me. They always mad to me and do something that I didn't like so much. You know, after that my relationship with my parents have get worst. I have tried to rebel them, and then I came late when I finished my school, and i was not talking with them for a long time. When I remember that moment it was like I live in this world just by myself, I never answer anyone in my home.

Oneday, my father have told me about when the national exam will held. You know what I did?  I was ignoring him until he felt mad to me. In that moment I've got many slap from my father but I was not conscious yet. I do my practice for exam without told anything to my parents and than absolutely I've got bad scores for it. As you know, when we do something without blessing from our parents it should be worst.

After that, my national exam happened, I just got ordinary score even I had ranked big 10 per sem. It makes my parents felt more disappointed to me. Then my first selection exam to get in the best institute was rejected, ya you know it make my parents felt more more more disappointed. But when I was conscious and i want to  apologize, my father died. Even finally I have got many university in my country, but still he can not see me yet, and i can't to make him laughing with proud to me. It was too late. Sorry dad :)

mind

what the purpose of life?
honestly we life for die, why should we compete not complete?
why is god make this life for make some dying soon and some dooms

my pet peeve

my pet peeve is that male look so "she male" , if there any chance i wanna punch all of them !! funuraba

my self

my name is ian, honestly i swear my name is ian, you can call me ian.
why i should write something like this? it cause i must do it, why i'm too lazy to write down something to text? due to the abilities of my writing is not good. but i'll try to write my own biography

ok, i will start my own biography. i was born on 4 august 1993, at east jakarta. when i was born this whole world are smile for me, you know why? cause of the new leader of human race was coming lol (fiction), this is the logical reason, because of the new baby with new story of life was coming, and i think all of people should smile when they meet a baby, when they not, they're psycho. (its not important).
ok i was born for first child for my parents, you know what it mean? i was born to be a leader for my little bro and sist, but honestly i dont have a brother.

the life began. day after day, month after month was held. im growing up till now, and many socialhood i ever taste. from when do you would to know me? haha, oke i will ask you step by step , when i was 5 i started to school, the school named playgroup. (continued)