I will try to share with you about my disappointment things in my whole life. It happened this year, when i was 17. In that situation i was really not serious in studied. I always make my parents disappointed with my score, day after day i used to be like that. And then, that's problem make me thought that my parents not really care about me. They always mad to me and do something that I didn't like so much. You know, after that my relationship with my parents have get worst. I have tried to rebel them, and then I came late when I finished my school, and i was not talking with them for a long time. When I remember that moment it was like I live in this world just by myself, I never answer anyone in my home.
Oneday, my father have told me about when the national exam will held. You know what I did? I was ignoring him until he felt mad to me. In that moment I've got many slap from my father but I was not conscious yet. I do my practice for exam without told anything to my parents and than absolutely I've got bad scores for it. As you know, when we do something without blessing from our parents it should be worst.
After that, my national exam happened, I just got ordinary score even I had ranked big 10 per sem. It makes my parents felt more disappointed to me. Then my first selection exam to get in the best institute was rejected, ya you know it make my parents felt more more more disappointed. But when I was conscious and i want to apologize, my father died. Even finally I have got many university in my country, but still he can not see me yet, and i can't to make him laughing with proud to me. It was too late. Sorry dad :)